



To the church of Blue Sky in Loveland, to those seeking the face of God's only begotten son Jesus Christ:
Jesus, who are you today?
The real Jesus…
The only Jesus…
A Buddhist friend of mine once told me that if I ever meet the Buddha on the street that I should kill him. I find myself often meditating on the true nature of my friend's comment. Would this be true for Jesus too? One truth my experience has revealed for me is that God will always be greater than my greatest belief. When I think I've got God "figured out" and I put limits on what Christ will do in my life, then I am in for a very rude awakening.
I've never wholeheartedly observed Lent. This year the season leading up to the celebration of Christ's death, burial and resurrection has taken on new meaning for me. Although much to my dismay, I find myself still sending one or two of the long winded, elaborate emails I am notorious for and slipping the now and then cup of caffeinated coffee I try and will myself to resist. The point of Lent isn't whether or not I can run a 40-day marathon. It isn't to give myself a big pat on the back on Easter Sunday either.
However, it is easy for the Pharisee in me to get the upper hand. I hear this voice saying, "You must do what you said you'd do!" I hear another voice saying, "Are you kidding? You've already failed. Why go on?" And I hear a still, quiet voice saying compassionately, "Just follow me…"
I was raised to believe Jesus Christ was the only Son of God. At a young age I received Christ as my Lord and Savior. I remember becoming very upset as a child when after accepting Jesus I thought maybe He forgot or that it really didn't count or something. My mom sat me down and had me write out a letter proclaiming that I asked Jesus into my heart. She had me sign and date it.
On August 11, 1990 Adam Paul Mackie asked Jesus into his heart and to be his Lord.
8/11/90
10:30 P.M.
going into
5th Grade
Adam P. Mackie
Tennie A. Mackie
Adam P. Mackie Senior? in College
7/20/01
1:39 a.m.
As you can see, I still have this piece of paper today. If I ever need to refer to it, I do.
For a long time after, however, I thought Jesus was like a super hero for the world I lived in. The song that goes, "Where is Superman when you need a helping hand/Where is Wonder Woman when trouble is really coming…" comes to mind from all those seasons of Vacation Bible School. As I got older, Jesus became more and more of the foxhole, S.O.S., and I need reinforcements kind of person I called on. If things weren't going my way at school, I wanted that special girl with the nice hair, or I wanted those flashing lights behind me on the road to disappear, then I prayed like praying was going out of style. Though when the coast was clear, the grades were straight, and I was getting the attention I sought, I put my faith back into Adam.
To make a long story less long, it wasn't until I became seemingly hopeless and so filled with fear I was about to explode, I was willing to try a new way of living. I found God didn't work for me. I was to work for Him. He was to be the Employer and I was to be the employee. I became willing to go to any lengths for a new life and I signed my name again under the words, "I am willing to go to any lengths" on Nov. 14, 2005.
A new life I was given, indeed! I was freely given a way to develop a personal relationship with the God of my understanding, Christ Jesus. The only catch was I was to remain willing to grow along spiritual lines and pass on what I was freely given to the next man reaching out. The fruits of this life are too many to mention.
The personal relationship I have with Jesus Christ today continues to baffle me, confuse me, confirm me, uplift me, discourage me, comfort me, and give me a level of joy and peace that I never could have imagined. I am slowly beginning to comprehend that Jesus was a man, in the flesh, who suffered some serious mortal pain. I was blown away after watching "Passion of the Christ." To visually see what might have gone down was amazingly horrific to watch.
I am also starting to understand the significance in Jesus saying that He is the way, the truth, and the life and no one goes to the Father except through Him. I praise Jesus for the gift of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit dwells inside me. The Holy Spirit is inside you too, if God's only begotten son lives in your heart.
I think the comment of meeting the Buddha on the street and killing him if you do has something to do with the death of self. When we can quiet our mind we may find there is no mind and there is no self. Debate the truth of this if you will, but my truth today is I am filled. I pray I can continue to pour out all that is not Adam (the world, the addictions, the resentments, the fear, the guilt, the shame, etc.) and have God continue to fill me with all that is Adam. The real Adam is found in the person and character of Jesus Christ. God, show me who You want me to be.
Faithfully,
Adam Mackie